blech.

i woke up with a headache this morning. and then i started having gastrointestinal difficulties. fun. especially when you're trying to get 3 kids up, ready and out the door. i get this tummy trouble on occasion and eventually it passes so really, i've got no choice but to soldier on. got everyone to school and made it to target where i dropped a pretty penny. for some reason, i had the shopping bug today. maybe it came with the intestinal bug. it was good though, i got stuff i'd been putting off but still needed; like stuff for the silent auction basket - our classes theme this year is 'beach blanket party', and target has some really cute cynthia rowley stuff including some fun flamingo stuff which i got for miss v who adores all things flamingo. 

sigh. i should be cleaning. miss m has a playdate this afternoon but i still have a headache and the migraine meds i finally took are starting to kick in and i really don't care about cleaning. how's that for a run on sentence. it's been nice all morning, but some very ominous clouds are rolling in. it looks like rain. so, i leave you with this

my miss v

i read 5 Minutes for Mom just about every day. they are currently hosting a mothers day photo contest with the photo representing what motherhood means to you. i thought, hey, why not. i'm a mom. i have photos. i've got just as good a chance as anyone else. so i'm sucking it up and entering! 

motherhood is scary. there are stumbling points, pitfalls and dangers everywhere. it's easy to hurt such small, fragile creatures who depend on us for everything. but we must not get so caught up in fear and worry that we don't forget to just stop, relax, and revel in the sun.

engineers + cats

they mix better than you would think. Check it out.

The chickens are coming home

and they are roosting. Probably my senior year of high school, I started realizing that life was a lot easier once I stopped caring what other people thought. The drama and trauma started to subside and I was on my way to becoming the pretty much together person I am today. My kids are fed, clean, and well behaved - well at least in public. I'm pretty happy with who I am and my life. I'm not riddled with uncertainty or the need to conform. I felt bad for those who lived life according to the dictates of others.

And then came softball.

Miss M is in her 2nd year of organized sports. Last year was t-ball (co-ed through the boys/girls club) this year she's on an all girl softball team through a different organization. It was mostly good (story for a different time) until our 1st game. Snack time to be specific. The snack consisted of: juice and fruit snack and granola bar and crackers and string cheese. Excessive much? That's not all, it was entirely from Whole Foods - aka Whole Paycheck. Now don't get me wrong, I'm pretty green and do buy local and organic quite a bit, but come on. I cringe to think of what that bill came to. For a snack. For a bevy of 6 & 7 year old girls. Who barely run.

So now, game 2 (today) and I'm the snack mom. See where this is going? I'm bringing flavored water (in pouches, geared towards kids) and Sun Chips. Nothing organic or super nutritious in my offering, but not total trash either. I worry though, am I going to end up being that mom? The one the other moms kind of shy away from, the one they whisper about and whom pity my kids because they think our snack is sub-par? Am I stunting my kids social growth with this? Why am I worrying so much and why do I care?! What. Is. Happening. To. Me.

If I feel this way about a snack, and Miss M is only in the 1st grade, I have a very bad feeling this may be just the beginning my friends. Just the beginning.